In my head…

So, I’ve realized that I blog a lot in my head….”If I were going to blog about this, this is what I would say…” However, for the 3 people who follow my blog, you know that what is in my head RARELY ever makes it to the blog. (I hope to change that)

 

I have been having a lot of thoughts lately about ‘bloggers’ those that blog a lot. I have around 45 blogs in my Google Reader and it feels like I have HUNDEREDS….because there are always so many posts and so many things to read.

 

Truth be told, I mostly look at people’s photos and skim their stories. =o)

 

I do have several “learning blogs” if you will…one about freezer cooking, one about being a better mom/wife, etc,, one about being a better woman in the bedroom, (yes you heard me right- sometimes a little Godly encouragement goes a long way), one about how to save the most money on xy&z, one about things to do in the area, several photographer friends that I like to encourage in their work, I also follow several close friends to keep up their thoughts, family, etc….

 

One thing that gets me about blogging is that SOMETIMES (not all the time and not everybody) blogs are the perfect front.

 

People tell what they want to tell and create a story of how they want to be perceived. As a person looking in from the outside….it is not fair to us when people make their lives look perfect, because I am here to tell you … I am not perfect!  And when I read about other people’s lives being great and wonderful, it makes me think “what’s wrong with me?” Now, I agree that is entirely my own issue I need to work on…

 

All I am saying is, I want my blog to reflect the truth. (And maybe that’s why I’ve hesitated to blog a lot in the past)

 

The truth is….God is DEFINITELY not finished with me yet! (Phil. 1:6 And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you^, will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.)

The truth is, I am overweight, my kids are not perfect, I am struggling with parenting, my marriage is not perfect, we have financial issues, and I have about a 100 things to work on in my own life, and I just hope that whatever I am going through can be seen as encouragement to someone else.

(I believe a little authenticity goes a long way!)

 

Things I am blogging in my head today….

 

I am still TIRED all the time from my hysterectomy….it makes me not want to do anything but curl up on the couch with my kiddos and take it easy.

HOWEVER…being a mom and a business owner, that’s not possible…STILL…that’s what I WANT to do! (when will this go away?)

 

Also, close friend of mine…found out today she might have Ovarian Cancer. HOW do you handle that? I mean, I’m stressed and worried and concerned for her, and it’s not even me!?

 

1 Samuel 2 :2-4

² “There is no one holy like the LORD;
   there is no one besides you;
  there is no Rock like our God.

³ “Do not keep talking so proudly
   or let your mouth speak such arrogance,
for the LORD is a God who knows,
   and by him deeds are weighed.

 

The Lord knows all the stuff in our life…He is not surprised…and thank you LORD that you are our ROCK.

 

Lord, please forgive me for always wanting to be in control. Thank you that I don’t HAVE to be!

Thank you that you are never surprised by the events in our lives and please help me to remember that you are my Rock…..the One and ONLY, help me to only turn to You in times of desperation!